Despite the downer title, I promise this is a happy post. ;)
Last week ended on a very frustrating note for me. Even though I crushed my October goals, I came up short at my weigh-in. I saw a loss of .2lbs, which was … oh I don’t know … about 4lbs less than I wanted to see pop up on that scale. To make a long story short, I flipped out. Instead of running to the fridge and eating a block of cheese (yup, that has definitely happened before.) I reached out. I chatted with my virtual-workout buddy Tammy. I tweeted out to my followers. I emailed my registered dietitian. At the end of the day (and after I did a lot of deep breathing) I felt good about how I handled the disappointment.
For the record, the scale is now gone again until next month. Clearly it has waaaay to much control over my emotions. Hey, I never claimed to be perfect. I’m totally a work in progress.
Even though I’ve come off the cliff a bit, it’s still frustrating. It’s hard to live with that “everything sucks” attitude that, for many years, I felt every single day. I don’t want to backslide into that way of thinking. What do you do? When everything feels like it’s against you, how do you find the motivation and determination to start over again?
This is where I would usually post an inspirational quote.
This is my inspiration.
Belittling myself does nothing positive for my health journey. It is time to look inward for inspiration. Let’s face it … big picture? I’m kinda kicking butt. ;) These pictures remind me of my hard work, my strength, my determination, my success. Two of those pictures are from when I was at my lowest weight (217lbs) and best health. I have the capability to do great things, and so do you.
Take a moment to just sit with that. Stop scouring Pinterest for inspirational quotes (I do this all the time, too!) and look at yourself. YOU are pretty damn amazing. Even if you feel like everything sucks, that the world is against you, and “this is just your life,” stop. Breathe. Know that you are capable. There’s no such thing as “lucky/unlucky people”. The people who succeed are the people that put THEMSELVES as a priority. They do the ground work. They understand the importance of being selfish every now and then.
So that’s what I’m determined to do this week, and hopefully for a long time. Look inside myself, do the hard work, understand that it’s going to be really (really) hard. When opportunities (weight loss) come, I’ll know I’ve earned it.