Please Note:: This is a series about my experiences and recovery with Binge Eating Disorder. Binge eating is a pattern of disordered eating which consists of episodes of uncontrollable eating. Many of the things I discuss could be extremely triggering if you are dealing with an eating disorder, so please read at your own risk. I am not a doctor or a therapist. I am simply telling you my story.
I took a bit of a break; vlogging about my recovery experience.
The past couple of months have been particularly hard. It’s amazing to me how much “being abstinent” (staying away from my trigger/binge foods entirely) is an entirely different struggle than just being binge-free. I’ve gone long stints (at one point, over a year) without binge-eating, but I’ve always kept those problem foods (pizza, pasta, bread) in my life. I never thought about it twice, but looking back – it really was a drug addict behavior. I could never be completely “sober” from my trigger foods. I always needed just a little hit.
I’m doing good, despite two months of crying and throwing tempter tantrums. I know I’m strong enough to do this. :) Here’s the update:
(click here to view the video, if is not showing in your reader.)
I recently changed all of my bios to read “recovering binge-eater” instead of “past binge-eater.” This is a life-long process, and I’ll always be “in recovery.” I”m starting to be okay with that … I think. ;) Here’s to another day of making peace with my disorder.
Until next time!