1) Sitting all day (boredom) is killing me.
Let’s set aside the fact that sitting all day could literally end your life sooner, and let me just say this: It was world’s easier to eat well and move when not tethered to a cubicle all day. Shocking, right? Although I figured I would be more active (duh), what I didn’t expect was how easy it was to stay on track with my eating habits. I honestly thought that being at home all day (aka within walking distance of a fully stocked fridge) would lead to some serious bingeing issues – especially with the hubs being out-of-town.
The total opposite happened! Because I was movin’ and groovin’ with household activities and summer outings, I barely even thought about food. It was a mini-revelation to me that boredom must be a main reason for my preoccupation with food and triggering my binge-eating.
My typical workday goes something like this:
- Wake up super tired from staying up too late the night before.
- Roll into work around 7am
- Stare at a computer screen until 12:30, sometimes getting up for a quick walk break.
- Lunch (1 hour)
- Stare at a computer screen until 4:00, sometimes getting up for a quick walk break.
- Leave work feeling totally drained of any mental energy.
- So “blah,” just want to drive through or grab a pizza. Most of the time I don’t, but more than I should.
- Want to blog. No creative thoughts left in my brain. Stay up way too late watching TV because I’m not actually tired, even though I feel like a total slug.
Whenever I leave work, my eyes hurt, my brain is mushy, my motivation to do anything has bottomed out. I’m so tired of doing nothing all day. When the hubs was at training all last week, he called me after a long day (of compute work) and said, “I totally understand now why you come home totally wiped out. Doing boring mindless work, while at the same time being bombarded with information (or in my case, deadlines) is exhausting.”
Anyone else with me on this? When I was at home, doing stuff all day, it was SO REFRESHING to actually be tired at the end of the day. Trust me, I know how weird that sounds. I wish I could feel like that everyday: energized and happy, productive (not just busy work), moving my butt, accomplishing things that actually matter, and then heading to bed perfectly tired for a full night sleep.
Does that exist in real-life for us working mamas? ;)
Maybe. Which leads me to…
2) I need to exercise midday (not just walk breaks).
I’ve thought this a million times. As much as I try to get up at 4am to workout, it only lasts for a couple of days. After work? Well, you just read the problem there. That’s not to say I don’t do it anyway, it’s just not the best situation. I grit my teeth through each workout, and they don’t do anything for my mental / emotional state. Does that make any sense? I hate dreading workouts.
When I was losing weight at the end of my college days, I worked out everyday at 11am. I feel like this is the perfect time for me. I’m finally fully awake and in a good work-groove, but just starting to get restless at work. After lunch everything goes downhill with my energy levels. I think it’s time for me to embrace working out over my lunch break, and then eating lunch at my desk.
Not only will this get me moving (no early wake-up! no sacrificing blog-time at night!), but I’m HOPING it will give me a huge mental boost. I really need something to reenergize myself both mentally and physically so I can come home at the end of the day a bit … well, less bitchy. ;)
Happier Emily = better mom, better wife, better blogger, better ME.
3) I am not a lazy person.
I’m not sure where or when the idea was planted into my head that I was lazy and worthless, but it pretty much sums up my self-esteem issues. I found that, despite my fears that I would turn my staycation into a “lounging on the couch” session, I really love being active; especially with Harper. There were a few times when I truly felt out of my element (ugh, biking up hills are the worst), but I can tell you with full confidence: one can be 290 lbs and highly active.
I honestly think my day job (and the problems I listed in point #1) plays a huge roll in my attitude. I’m beyond grateful to have a job and all the benefits that come along with it, but it’s time to change-up how I deal with the negative side-effects of a desk job. I’m not lazy, I’m not worthless, I’m just burnt-out.
Next step? I’ve already started researching some gyms in the area that offer noon classes, prices, how to NOT look like a total hot-mess for the rest of my workday, etc. Let’s do this! :)
What about you? Anyone else feeling the office-life blues?